i like...i miss...

i like how my room is like now...all tidied up...soft orangie light...soothing bossa nova music playing...really feels like my hall room...except there's nobody shuffling past in their rubber slippers, no neighbours popping in to say hi and comment on how my room smells like a baby's room. (still can't figure that one out) i miss having jean, grace & jamie around. i miss going for supper...i miss going for midnight jogs with jean in campus...i miss softball trainings...i miss the feeling of hitting a softball...homerun...i miss being able to pop into my neighbour's room to get a hug when i feel depressed for no good reason...i miss starring out of my hallroom window...seeing the leaves and lil yellow flowers spiralling down, dancing in the wind...i miss taking naps and being woken up to go down to get yucky packed dinner (cai fan)...i miss eating dinners with my neighbours and watch the tiny tv in my room...i miss sneaking into grace's room when she's sleeping to get food from the fridge...i miss cooking meals n receiving complements, eating in the common kitchen...laughing until ppl complain...running along the corridors...i miss bringing up laundry to dry in my room...i like the smell...

i like making cards...setting up everything...my many craft punches, many stamps, inkpads, embossing powder, papers of different textures and colours, my many many pens & colour pencils, cutting knife, scissors, cutters, cutting board, paintbrush, tapes, glue...then sitting down to work-cut, stamp, emboss, paste, colour, put everything together...then sit there and write the message inside the card...make an envelope...then feel very satisfied. i don't think i'll make cards to sell...dun think i've ever really done that...dun think i can mass-produce cards...but i think i should though, to make full use of my stamps n craft punches...i miss making origami, pop-up cards, papercrafts...i miss those times in hall when i has to sew costumes, sew bags to sell...so super duper fun...i miss rag.

i like drinking hot tea when it rains...i like drinking yummy hot soup with yummy toasted bread with a lil butter on top that'll melt when dipped in soup...i like scones with lots of jam n whipped cream...

i like nuahing in my room...i like reading a book from cover to cover the whole night...i like reading good sappy stories...i like writing letters...i like watching sappy movies...i like musicals...i like jap/korean dramas (yup yup the nice sappy ones too)...i like reality tv...i like a cappella music...i like a cappella concerts...i miss being in an orchestra (chinese orchestra)...i like playing the piano (what lil i can...wish i can play better *sigh*)...

i like being alone...doing stuff alone...nuahing, thinking, making stuff, reading...i like walking alone, shopping alone...but i like to eat with ppl...hate eating alone.

i like running/walking alone...just that most times i'm too lazy to...not really safe to go running alone. i hate traffic n crowds...i like quiet places...which are not exactly safe. really like running in the night...esp when it's late and there's no one...no traffic...really miss those times when i went for midnight runs with jean...

i like teaching maths...i miss scolding my students...i miss marking maths tests n exams...i miss my colleagues...

i like playing mahjong with my family...

i like playing word games...

i like babies & lil kids...

hee hee hee...dunno why i did this...in a weird melancholic mood...feels like I'm the me when i was in uni...how odd...sometimes...I just feel so human...so earthly...yet at the same time, I know I shouldn't give in to this pull that the world has on me...I don't belong here...

Dear Lord...help me to fix my eyes on You...not to love the world or things of this world..to know that You have prepared a better place for me above...to remember of what You want me to do...to remember that which is truly important...to be thankful for what You have given me. Help me to not love myself...not to be proud n conceited...help me to love You and love others...help me not to be complacent and lazy... Lord, You know me through and through, better than I know myself...help me to submit to You, remain in You...I want to fix my eyes on You...I want to run the race and seek after You...Your Kingdom...Your righteousness...Your love...Your truth...