why...oh why?

why are we such fragile creatures?
why do we get hurt so easily?
why are we such cruel creatures?
why do we hurt others so easily?
why do we make the same mistakes over and over again?

we are human...sinners...imperfect creatures whose programming has been corrupted.

so easy to forget that...we are sinners...silly, stooopid creatures.

our world revolves mostly around us...our feelings, our pride, our wants, desires, likes, dislikes, what we do for others, what we want others to do for us, how we want to be liked, and praised and appreciated...how we try to be nice to others...how we try to be selfless and loving...me me me me my my my my...

so easy to get drowned by our own voice. that voice in my head.

so miserable sometimes...simply confirms that we are not made to be the centre of our lives...we were not made to worship ourselves and have our lives revolve around us and us only. it seems the more we want to please ourselves and have things our own way...the more miserable we end up...odd?

yes, even Christians are sinners, Christians' lives can end up revolving around themselves, Christians can be selfish...we are as sinful as the rest of the human race.

but we know...that our lives ARE to revolve around God...we are to worship Him and Him only...we have the manual to know how to live our lives the way we're made to. we know why we are miserable. i take comfort in that knowledge...that whenever i get hurt, that it's likely to be my pride, my self-centeredness at work as well...i can't imagine how hurt Paul was when the Corinthians made accusations at him...that's got to be really tough.

but i remember what the most selfless person has done for me...how He was hurt more than anyone can ever ever ever imagine...if He can forgive me, and accept me, and be that patient with me...what excuse do i have not to do the same to others?

Thank you for the cross...for your love that so overwhelms...thank you, for you are the true centre of all things, the One who's in absolute control...thank you for providing an answer to my misery, my hurt, my doubts, my confusion...thank you for making everything so so so much easier to bear, for You are there to guide me, counsel me, comfort me, remind me. Thank you sooooo much...for being the only One who can make perfect sense of everything. Thank you...that when I fix my eyes on you...everything else can be put in the right perspective...and make sense.

Matthew 6:14 "For when you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you."

Psalm 91:1 "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, will rest in the shadow of the Almighty."

Isaiah 40:31 "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."